Ikuti Irama

Lihat sekitar kita
Banyak wajah-wajah yang bermuram durja
Lalu bagaimana?
Hibur saja sampai mereka lupa

Ayo semua ikut bergoyang
Bergerak ikuti irama
(Berdansa sama-sama)

Lihat sekitar kita
Banyak yang masih malu untuk bergoyang
Ayo cuek aja
Daripada dibilang kampungan

Ayo semua ikut bergoyang
Bergerak ikuti irama
(Berdansa sama-sama)

Denganmu

Kau hiasi setiap mimpiku
Selalu hadir dalam bayangku
Tak henti-hentinya aku rindu
Jika kita tak bertemu
Hampa kurasa
Saat kau tak ada
Ku rasa kecewa
kalau kau tak di sana

Ohh
Ku hanya ingin denganmu
Lewatkan setiap waktu
Terus terang ku tak perduli
dengan semua sikapmu
Ohh
Ku hanya ingin denganmu
Lewatkan setiap waktu
Terus terang ku tak perduli
dengan semua sikapmu itu

Ku terbuai dan aku malu
Saat kau sebut-sebut namaku
Dengan suara merdumu
seakan merayu
Dan saat kau katakan kau cinta
Hatiku langsung berbunga-bunga
Ku bahagia, ku gembira..

IBU

masih terbesit di mataku
bayang redup sendu wajahmu
dulu aku slalu membuatmu malu
tak perduli sedihmu
aku mohon ampun padamu
maafkanlah semua salahku
menyesal diriku
sebenarnya aku ingin katakan padamu

tiada hari seindah dulu
saat kau selalu di sisiku
tanpa dirimu isi dunia menjadi sunyi dan sepi
aku lelah tuk jalani
namun dirimu selalu hadir dalam bayanganku bagaikan bidadari
tapi kini kau telah tiada tinggalkan dunia yang indah ini
oh ibu

happy b-day mom...

Mlarat butuh duit po?

bapak & mommy went to russia yesterday. to bad i don't go with them.
i would like to go, you know. but i don't want to bother their trip.
well, i told my friend michelle to watch them instead if they go to moscow.
i think michelle is vvv disapointed b'cuz i couldn't meet him in moscow.

к michelle:
я пропускаю вас, я надеюсь я может прийти к moscow с моими отцом и матью может я сказать?
вы знаете мою ситуацию, не делаете вы?
я надеюсь мы может встретить скоро.

hmm, sorry michelle. i promise, one day i'll go to moscow to meet you, even in my dreams.. :)
i have something important to do. and i still don't know what should i do.
let see,...
i need money, it's about $500.
i haven't paid the telephone bill for 2 months, the electricity bill for 2 months & also the water bill for 2 months.
how can i get a lot of money? i'm not doing anything these days. not a single work makes money.
now i stay with mr.ndut's family (since april) and i must save some savings not wasting my savings. but still have to pay my telephone bill for the internet. shit. i haven't pay all bills for my old house, and i have to pay more here?
fuck myself being an irresposible person!!
so far, i never worry at all about all of that.
i think, tomorrow,... god will throw $500 from the sky for me...
:)
boros duit raiso diilangi
piye ki?

Been sooooo loooong

ya ampun!! it's been so loooong!!!
gila ni tampilan pengeditan blog ada yang brubah...
wow, wow, so many things happened!!!
i lost my best friend!! t-ree left me & oscar is dead...
i have no job, no school, nothing to do...
no writing for almost 2 months...
and now what? back to the blog? not sure...
hey,... don't believe everything you read, bro...
i love you... kekekekek....ngiiik!!

Drunken Face

Sometimes I wanna try the hardest to lie
Nuthin' gettin' here, alright
It doesn't matter if i'm alone in this life
You told me everything's gonna be alright

Sick of this
Sick of this life
Something's bother me inside
Bitter get
Bitter life
It's been haunting me to death

Say, Drunken face
Comin' hard to haunting me this night
I say, Drunken face
Show the devil in me to bite
Say, Drunken face
is still on my side
I say, Drunken face
Let me control my behave

Hanya

Ku tak pernah ada keberanian
mengungkapkan satu perasaan
Rasa cinta yang selalu terus kupendam
Tak pernah kukatakkan
Yang pasti kuakan
Bahagia melihat dirinya tersenyum
dan ajak aku bicara
Yang pasti kuakan
senang melihat dirinya menatapku
Salahkah kalau aku...

Hanya pandang dirinya dari jauh
tak kuasa untuk sampaikan kepadanya
Hanya pandang dirinya dan membatin
aku cinta dia

Ku tak pernah tahu perasaannya
Dia memandangku bagaimana
Pertanyaan yang selalu terus kupendam
tak pernah kutanyakan
Yang pasti kuakan
Bahagia melihat dirinya tersenyum
dan ajak aku bicara
Yang pasti kuakan
senang melihat dirinya menatapku
Salahkah kalau aku...

Hanya pandang dirinya dari jauh
tak kuasa untuk sampaikan kepadanya
Hanya pandang dirinya dan membatin
aku cinta dia

Jaga sikapmu

Jangan hanya bisa bohongi
Bercerita tentang hidup ini
Jangan hanya bisa berucap
Kata-kata yang tak kau mengerti

Jaga sikapmu
Jangan asal bicara
Apa kau mengerti sebanyak mereka?
Jaga sikapmu
Dan jangan sok tahu
Sadarkah kau dengan omonganmu itu?

Jangan hanya bisa memaki
Kalau kau tak tahu yang kau cari
Jangan hanya bisa berbangga
Sombongkan diri di depan mereka

Jaga sikapmu
Jangan asal bicara
Apa kau mengerti sebanyak mereka?
Jaga sikapmu
Dan jangan sok tahu
Sadarkah kau dengan omonganmu itu?

Mimpi Bunuh Diri

Rentangkan tanganmu
Berdiri tegak
Di tengah-tengah rel kereta api
Tunggu sampai kereta itu tiba
Dan jangan beranjak ke mana-mana
Hingga kereta itu menggilas tubuhmu
Hancur lebur berhamburan darah dan daging
Sekarang bangunlah dari mimpi burukmu
Kau belum mati karena yang kau rasakan itu...

Mimpi bunuh diri
Apalah asiknya
Mimpi bunuh diri
Asiknya, kau tak benar-benar mati

Pejamkan matamu
Jangan takut untuk melompat
Dari lantai paling atas gedung itu
Kau sekarang tidak berada di dunia nyata
Tapi kau sedang larut dalam mimpimu
Berapa kali pun kau coba bunuh diri
Tapi kau tak akan bisa mati
Tapi kalau kau sudah bangun dari mimpimu
Jangan coba-coba melakukan itu

Mimpi bunuh diri
Apalah asiknya
Mimpi bunuh diri
Asiknya, kau tak benar-benar mati

Bergoyang

Bergerak saja
Kalau kau ingin
Goyangkan kepala ke kiri dan kanan
Ikuti irama lagu yang kumainkan
Oh ho
Kita semua sudah ada di sini
Untuk nikmati
Musik yang asik
Ikuti irama lagu yang kumainkan

download lagu:
http://www.mediafire.com/?drvl6y5d2jg1x4h

SEPERTI BIASANYA

Di sini aku berbaring
Seperti biasanya
Tidak ada yang memeluk
Tidak ada yang perduli

Di sini aku menagis
Seperti biasanya
Tidak ada yang menghibur
Tidak ada yang tahu

Terus saja lempari aku
Dengan batu-batu itu
Terus saja hina aku
Dengan umpatan saktimu

Di sini aku menghayal
Seperti biasanya
Tidak ada yang mengganggu
Tidak ada masalah buatku

Di sini aku menghilang
Seperti biasanya
Tidak ada yang melihatku
Tidak ada yang menyapaku

Terus saja ingkari janjiku
Dengan sumpah-sumpah palsu
Terus saja pukuli aku
Dengan kepalan tanganmu

Di sini aku berbaring
Seperti biasanya
Di sini aku menagis
Seperti biasanya
Di sini aku menghayal
Seperti biasanya
Di sini aku menghilang
Seperti biasanya

Run

Walk around under the moonlight
Through the night
Hear you call, it's time to go home
But I won't coming home
Cuz I
Wait for nuthin'
Hey, lost everythin'

Don't you ever give a shit on me?
Don't ever try to know me more
I always try to listen
And I always try to trust you
But you, don't give a shit about me

Don't...
give...
a...
shit...
about me...

Run, far away from home
Never go back home
How could I be so blind?
Compare to you, I'm...
Nuthin', nuthin', nuthin'
Nuthin', nuthin', nuthin'
Cuz I
Wait for nuthin'
Hey, lost everythin'

Merciful

I've been down for to long
In this little secret stage
I perform on my own
Nobody watching me
Oh,my musical is so pity
Please have mercy
I can't show you like they do
Ohh
Merciful, for my creation
Merciful, for my shout
Merciful, for my balance
Merciful, for my voice
But I always, remember the nation
And give you, a good temptation
It's only, a cheap illusion
I never give a damn, you know
this life goes on

I don't care what people say
I don't mind if they don't pay
I don't know how long I can stay
To work like this everyday
D'you spit on me? I don't care
D'you call this bad? That's OK
I just want to have my own way

Masa Depan Bukan Masa Lalu

Ke mana lagi kau akan pergi
Setelah dia meninggalkan dirimu
Apa lagi yang kau cari
Jangan berhenti kau masih punya banyak waktu
untuk temukan...
Masa depanmu, bukan masa lalu

Lepaskanlah semua duka
Agar kau tak lagi merasa
terhina dan tak berharga
Berusahalah semampumu
Untuk meraih keinginanmu
Hingga terkabul semua cita-citamu

Rap :
Get up, Get up
C'mon do ur style yo
Don't you ever be afraid to say no
Prepare ur self and lettin' it go
Body body beat do the bad to get blow
Gotta work it up, build it up
Do ur style yo
Don't you ever be afraid to say no
Prepare ur self and lettin' it go
Just let it flow

Siapa Yang Kau Cintai?

setelah sekian lama kutunggu
kabar darimu
Ternyata yang kukira
telah kubaca sebelumnya

ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
tak pernahkah kau merasa
duniamu bukanlah segalanya
tak pernahkan kau mencoba

berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
siapa yang kau cintai?
Oohh..
siapa yang kau cintai?

apa yang ada dalam benakmu
bukan diriku
kau lupakan semua
kebahagiaan dan cinta

ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
tak pernahkah kau merasa
duniamu bukanlah segalanya
tak pernahkan kau mencoba

berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
siapa yang kau cintai?
Oohh..
siapa yang kau cintai?

Rap :
Look what you've done, man!
Messed up the whole plan
I don't know what to do to make you understand
I can't, forget all the time we spent
When we always solve everything we can
Now you only want the game
And you would never change
Punch in my chest, then you bring me pain
God damn, Don't ever love again
Don't ever love me again

Uh huh, yeah
Check it out, yo
D in the year 03
Mesmerizin' all forget
We'll sing to ya
Check this out

berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
yang kau cintai...
kau cintai...
siapa yang kau cintai?

ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
dunia bukanlah segalanya
ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
duniamu bukanlah segalanya

Put it to the ground

Let's forget the problem and we gotta put it to the ground
Watch it comes around
Inside your feeling and depresin' gotta put it to the ground
Hooo ooohhh
Get up, put it all in to the ground
(Put it to the ground 3X put it to the...)
Stand up, put it all in the the ground
(Put it to the ground 2X put it to the...)

Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you

Put it to the ground 2X to the ground, put it to the ground, put it to the...
Put it to the ground 3X put it to the...

Let's forget the problem and we gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground, put it to the...)
Inside your feeling and depresin' gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground, put it to the...)
Let's forget the problem and we gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground 2X to the ground, put it to the ground, put it to the...)
Inside your feeling and depresin' gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground 2X to the ground, put it to the ground, put it to the...)

Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you
--> Till end...

New Direction

I will find a new direction
Before I watch you go
And it bugging me
I'd never ever
give a damn about our distand
I will try to fuck it all the time
when watch you down
I will let you fly where you want to
I let you go

Call it all a new direction
And you watch me burn
To let go let go let go
Call it all a big sensation
Until you start to want me more
you want me more

Colaboration with Dizeazed

No Harmful Rhyme
My Collaboration with Dizeazed (California) - http://www.myspace.com/dizeazed
download: http://www.mediafire.com/?724j3z39a7m3v3n

Verse 1 : (Me)

Live in the in dark, i never makin it hard
This life could be so wonderful When I watch em laugh and sitting in the park
I'm black, I never notice cuz I have no time for those, I have no remorse
I was close, I suppose I wouldn't gonna makin this prose
I thought my rhymes would be - the shit, it's the most gross
It shows the past and last time I blast
But I gon do this shit and I'd give you the best
And I don't need a cash, I slashed, not to depress, I possessed, smoking grass, such a mess and I have no stress
I wouldn't do it with the faster enuff to make it more ruff, tryna do some hot bluff
I work so hard and do my best, I try to fakin it
Don't giva shit bout this cuz It's so hard to doin' it
How do you see about this? would you try to grab it?
Excuse me, I'm sorry I can't put the credit
But hangin' bangin' bouncing smoking with all of you
It's the best thing in my life, I said, yes it's tru
I'm rappin here, I don't try to bein' cool
Cuz everybody knows that this young pup is justa fool

Chorus:

We try to gather, and here we flow
With no harmful, no harmful rhyme

Verse 2 : (Dizeazed)

Sometimes I just kick back and I wonder
What would have happened to me if I would have gone under?
I don't like to think the thoughts that I'm forced to think
But I think if I come out on top it's just a wink Of the price that I pay to live on another day
Know what I say when I'm speaking to you in this way?
It's ok if you don't cause you're probably better off
Thoughts of ak's at a throat make blood come up as I cough
The the trough that we trudge, where obstacles never budge
Like a judge with prejudice has a never-ending grudge
But I fight back, never give'em no slack
As soon as you turn away that's when they chose to attack
So I'm right back, where I began to start
Stayin' on the right track, even when they make it pitch dark
I don't like that everybody ties me to the ground
As soon as I get high they be pulling me back down
So I'm like a hound, seeking anything out to destroy
But I'm still bound, I'm running in circles just like a toy
So I pound on my chest and try to release the stress
Of this everyday torture that I can't seem to suppress
But there are days that are happy and filled with joy
Like when I'm flowin' with Sinicide, that's my boy Or my girl, Devilicia who's company
I enjoy Un-harmful rhymes is what we collaborate and deploy

Chorus:

We try to gather, and here we flow
With no harmful, no harmful rhyme

Verse 3

(Me)

I just stay back and listen as I catch up on my self
I bet I gotta find a type of boy to feel my heart in shine
I wish I found a miracle, untouchable, unforgetable, unbelievable, be a happy Yo!
Cheer myself, make myself happy slappy in that family be what I wanna be free
I don't want to put myself in to a bad bad trouble problem dizzy tiny winy shity terribly like shit
I close my eyes and I realize
That lie is not a good thing to make my heart coolin'
Cuz I'll be foolin and drownin'
Gotta find a better way to let myself in
Diz!!!

(Dizeazed)

I'm A Fuckin Bitch

They knew who I am. But I don't even know myself like they knew me. I never pretend to be someone else. Fuck no!
They said, I'm mentally sick to death being a super freak. But don't call me a freak b'cuz I'm just a weak human like you. Human is human, Human is not god. But many people never pay attention about the meaning of that words.
My friends. All gone. They don't want to meet me anymore. They left me with the same fuckin' reason. I make them 'sick'. Sometimes I think, how did it happen? I never feel that I've done something wrong or hurt their feelings, you know. I don't want to do that and I'm not gonna fuckin' do that. What the fuck is matter with them? Well, I know. They don't want to be friends with a fuckin' loser. Well, I'm totally 100% fuckin' loser, maybe. So, all of you are free to judge me anything you want. I'm not gonna take a revenge. I'm not that kind of person. I will keep silent and watching you go up away high while I'm falling down. It's OK if I lost everything as long as I don't lost my body, my soul and my life.
What is perfection? I never know. I think, perfection is something that can make someone adores you, admire you. I don't have perfection, like some people said ; "Nobody's perfect". Are you 100% perfect? If yes, I feel happy too. I will adore you... That's my thought about perfection. Well, I'm not perfect. Maybe I said it wrong. Maybe you can describe 'what is perfection' better than me...
What is destruction? Well.. Before I say to you what I think of 'what is destruction', I will warn you one more time, don't you ever think that my opinions are perfect, good or right. Maybe you can explain better than me 'what is destruction'. We're different people with different opinion, right? OK. I repeat... What is destruction? I think, destruction is something that can make someone spit on you, hate you, compare you with shit, dirt, trash, failure. Like me. I am Ms. Self Destruct. I'm very close to destruction. No loving parents, no loving friends, no lovers. Nothing. They all run away from me. B'cuz I'm a fuckin' bitch. Well, honestly, me myself, never feel that I'm a fuckin' bitch. I say that myself to b'cuz so many people see me as a fuckin' bitch. You can say, I'm a fuckin' bitch, but as a matter fact I'm not. That's how I feel.
What kind of words suitable for me? (Not me calling myself but how they calling me). So many bad words. Such as bastard, liar, loser, bitch? You name it. Up to you. But if I tell you what kind of person I am, probably you won't believe it. Honestly, I don't want to make people disappointed. I'm not a liar. I don't want to hurt people's feeling and I never want to use them for my necessity. No, I would never do that. I don't want to see people hurt each other and start a war or mass debating. I don't want it, do you? I have respect. I respect everybody, no matter how bad the person is. I don't give a damn if I talk to criminals, whores, losers, liars, beggars, etc etc... I give respect to them. And I also will give my respect to you too, never call you my enemy or dumber. B'cuz...you know.. How does it feel when someone treated you without respect? Ignore you? Get away from you? It huts! It hurt so bad!

Choose Life

Choose life.

Choose a job.

Choose a career.

Choose a family,

Choose a fucking big television,

Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.

Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.

Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments.

Choose a starter home.

Choose your friends.

Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.

Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics.

Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.

Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth.

Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats.

You have spawned to replace yourself.

Choose your future.

Choose life.

I chose not to choose life.

I chose something else.