Masa Depan Bukan Masa Lalu

Ke mana lagi kau akan pergi
Setelah dia meninggalkan dirimu
Apa lagi yang kau cari
Jangan berhenti kau masih punya banyak waktu
untuk temukan...
Masa depanmu, bukan masa lalu

Lepaskanlah semua duka
Agar kau tak lagi merasa
terhina dan tak berharga
Berusahalah semampumu
Untuk meraih keinginanmu
Hingga terkabul semua cita-citamu

Rap :
Get up, Get up
C'mon do ur style yo
Don't you ever be afraid to say no
Prepare ur self and lettin' it go
Body body beat do the bad to get blow
Gotta work it up, build it up
Do ur style yo
Don't you ever be afraid to say no
Prepare ur self and lettin' it go
Just let it flow

Siapa Yang Kau Cintai?

setelah sekian lama kutunggu
kabar darimu
Ternyata yang kukira
telah kubaca sebelumnya

ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
tak pernahkah kau merasa
duniamu bukanlah segalanya
tak pernahkan kau mencoba

berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
siapa yang kau cintai?
Oohh..
siapa yang kau cintai?

apa yang ada dalam benakmu
bukan diriku
kau lupakan semua
kebahagiaan dan cinta

ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
tak pernahkah kau merasa
duniamu bukanlah segalanya
tak pernahkan kau mencoba

berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
siapa yang kau cintai?
Oohh..
siapa yang kau cintai?

Rap :
Look what you've done, man!
Messed up the whole plan
I don't know what to do to make you understand
I can't, forget all the time we spent
When we always solve everything we can
Now you only want the game
And you would never change
Punch in my chest, then you bring me pain
God damn, Don't ever love again
Don't ever love me again

Uh huh, yeah
Check it out, yo
D in the year 03
Mesmerizin' all forget
We'll sing to ya
Check this out

berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
berhenti, bersembunyi, coba tenangkan diri
berlari, mencari, arah tujuan pasti
mengerti, semua, arti kehidupan ini
cintai, siapa yang kau cintai
yang kau cintai...
kau cintai...
siapa yang kau cintai?

ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
dunia bukanlah segalanya
ku tak seburuk yang kau kira
duniamu bukanlah segalanya

Put it to the ground

Let's forget the problem and we gotta put it to the ground
Watch it comes around
Inside your feeling and depresin' gotta put it to the ground
Hooo ooohhh
Get up, put it all in to the ground
(Put it to the ground 3X put it to the...)
Stand up, put it all in the the ground
(Put it to the ground 2X put it to the...)

Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you

Put it to the ground 2X to the ground, put it to the ground, put it to the...
Put it to the ground 3X put it to the...

Let's forget the problem and we gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground, put it to the...)
Inside your feeling and depresin' gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground, put it to the...)
Let's forget the problem and we gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground 2X to the ground, put it to the ground, put it to the...)
Inside your feeling and depresin' gotta put it to the ground
(Put it to the ground 2X to the ground, put it to the ground, put it to the...)

Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you stand up
Move up, we'll make you get up
Move up, we'll make you
--> Till end...

New Direction

I will find a new direction
Before I watch you go
And it bugging me
I'd never ever
give a damn about our distand
I will try to fuck it all the time
when watch you down
I will let you fly where you want to
I let you go

Call it all a new direction
And you watch me burn
To let go let go let go
Call it all a big sensation
Until you start to want me more
you want me more

Colaboration with Dizeazed

No Harmful Rhyme
My Collaboration with Dizeazed (California) - http://www.myspace.com/dizeazed
download: http://www.mediafire.com/?724j3z39a7m3v3n

Verse 1 : (Me)

Live in the in dark, i never makin it hard
This life could be so wonderful When I watch em laugh and sitting in the park
I'm black, I never notice cuz I have no time for those, I have no remorse
I was close, I suppose I wouldn't gonna makin this prose
I thought my rhymes would be - the shit, it's the most gross
It shows the past and last time I blast
But I gon do this shit and I'd give you the best
And I don't need a cash, I slashed, not to depress, I possessed, smoking grass, such a mess and I have no stress
I wouldn't do it with the faster enuff to make it more ruff, tryna do some hot bluff
I work so hard and do my best, I try to fakin it
Don't giva shit bout this cuz It's so hard to doin' it
How do you see about this? would you try to grab it?
Excuse me, I'm sorry I can't put the credit
But hangin' bangin' bouncing smoking with all of you
It's the best thing in my life, I said, yes it's tru
I'm rappin here, I don't try to bein' cool
Cuz everybody knows that this young pup is justa fool

Chorus:

We try to gather, and here we flow
With no harmful, no harmful rhyme

Verse 2 : (Dizeazed)

Sometimes I just kick back and I wonder
What would have happened to me if I would have gone under?
I don't like to think the thoughts that I'm forced to think
But I think if I come out on top it's just a wink Of the price that I pay to live on another day
Know what I say when I'm speaking to you in this way?
It's ok if you don't cause you're probably better off
Thoughts of ak's at a throat make blood come up as I cough
The the trough that we trudge, where obstacles never budge
Like a judge with prejudice has a never-ending grudge
But I fight back, never give'em no slack
As soon as you turn away that's when they chose to attack
So I'm right back, where I began to start
Stayin' on the right track, even when they make it pitch dark
I don't like that everybody ties me to the ground
As soon as I get high they be pulling me back down
So I'm like a hound, seeking anything out to destroy
But I'm still bound, I'm running in circles just like a toy
So I pound on my chest and try to release the stress
Of this everyday torture that I can't seem to suppress
But there are days that are happy and filled with joy
Like when I'm flowin' with Sinicide, that's my boy Or my girl, Devilicia who's company
I enjoy Un-harmful rhymes is what we collaborate and deploy

Chorus:

We try to gather, and here we flow
With no harmful, no harmful rhyme

Verse 3

(Me)

I just stay back and listen as I catch up on my self
I bet I gotta find a type of boy to feel my heart in shine
I wish I found a miracle, untouchable, unforgetable, unbelievable, be a happy Yo!
Cheer myself, make myself happy slappy in that family be what I wanna be free
I don't want to put myself in to a bad bad trouble problem dizzy tiny winy shity terribly like shit
I close my eyes and I realize
That lie is not a good thing to make my heart coolin'
Cuz I'll be foolin and drownin'
Gotta find a better way to let myself in
Diz!!!

(Dizeazed)

I'm A Fuckin Bitch

They knew who I am. But I don't even know myself like they knew me. I never pretend to be someone else. Fuck no!
They said, I'm mentally sick to death being a super freak. But don't call me a freak b'cuz I'm just a weak human like you. Human is human, Human is not god. But many people never pay attention about the meaning of that words.
My friends. All gone. They don't want to meet me anymore. They left me with the same fuckin' reason. I make them 'sick'. Sometimes I think, how did it happen? I never feel that I've done something wrong or hurt their feelings, you know. I don't want to do that and I'm not gonna fuckin' do that. What the fuck is matter with them? Well, I know. They don't want to be friends with a fuckin' loser. Well, I'm totally 100% fuckin' loser, maybe. So, all of you are free to judge me anything you want. I'm not gonna take a revenge. I'm not that kind of person. I will keep silent and watching you go up away high while I'm falling down. It's OK if I lost everything as long as I don't lost my body, my soul and my life.
What is perfection? I never know. I think, perfection is something that can make someone adores you, admire you. I don't have perfection, like some people said ; "Nobody's perfect". Are you 100% perfect? If yes, I feel happy too. I will adore you... That's my thought about perfection. Well, I'm not perfect. Maybe I said it wrong. Maybe you can describe 'what is perfection' better than me...
What is destruction? Well.. Before I say to you what I think of 'what is destruction', I will warn you one more time, don't you ever think that my opinions are perfect, good or right. Maybe you can explain better than me 'what is destruction'. We're different people with different opinion, right? OK. I repeat... What is destruction? I think, destruction is something that can make someone spit on you, hate you, compare you with shit, dirt, trash, failure. Like me. I am Ms. Self Destruct. I'm very close to destruction. No loving parents, no loving friends, no lovers. Nothing. They all run away from me. B'cuz I'm a fuckin' bitch. Well, honestly, me myself, never feel that I'm a fuckin' bitch. I say that myself to b'cuz so many people see me as a fuckin' bitch. You can say, I'm a fuckin' bitch, but as a matter fact I'm not. That's how I feel.
What kind of words suitable for me? (Not me calling myself but how they calling me). So many bad words. Such as bastard, liar, loser, bitch? You name it. Up to you. But if I tell you what kind of person I am, probably you won't believe it. Honestly, I don't want to make people disappointed. I'm not a liar. I don't want to hurt people's feeling and I never want to use them for my necessity. No, I would never do that. I don't want to see people hurt each other and start a war or mass debating. I don't want it, do you? I have respect. I respect everybody, no matter how bad the person is. I don't give a damn if I talk to criminals, whores, losers, liars, beggars, etc etc... I give respect to them. And I also will give my respect to you too, never call you my enemy or dumber. B'cuz...you know.. How does it feel when someone treated you without respect? Ignore you? Get away from you? It huts! It hurt so bad!

Choose Life

Choose life.

Choose a job.

Choose a career.

Choose a family,

Choose a fucking big television,

Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.

Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance.

Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments.

Choose a starter home.

Choose your friends.

Choose leisure wear and matching luggage.

Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics.

Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.

Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth.

Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats.

You have spawned to replace yourself.

Choose your future.

Choose life.

I chose not to choose life.

I chose something else.

Nyicil Beres-beres, Pedhot, dan sebagainya...

Lhah! Ternyata beres-beres itu cape. Sampe sekarang I blom pindah-pindah...
Biarin aja ah. Abis it's very hard to leave this home...
Kalau pergi ke mana-mana aja, pasti homesick mulu, n pertama kali yang kangenin pasti kamar.
Wah,.. ntar kalau udah pindah, kalau homesick gimana ya?? Huuu...

Hari Senin, mendem. Hari Slasa mendem, n hari Rabo waras, soalnya yang bikin mendem udah habis.
Hari Slasa kmaren diputusin ama si Nicolas. Hiks..hiks.. sekarang single, ndak punya pacar.
Tapi perasaan, single ama punya pacar sama aja. Soalnya Nicolas jarang ketemuan n jarang merduliin...
Jangan mikirin dia lagi, kalau terus-terusan mikirin dia nanti jadi pekok...
Aku tuh ndak baik buat dia. Dia masih bisa dapetin cewek yang lebih lagi.
"Ya ndak, Nico???"
Tau ndak? Kalau aku tanya sama Nicolas pertanyaan yang dalam kurung di atas itu, sebelom aku ngomong 'koe iso golek wong wedok sing luweh apik timbang aku,... Si Nico jawabnya gini : "Thanks for your understanding.."
Makanya itu aku sering-sering bilang ke aku sendiri kalo "Kowe kuwi nyet anggota ' THE BEST UNDERSTANDING WOMEN' in the world...
Tapi ndak di semua bidang. Yang bener-bener 'THE BEST UNDERSTANDING WOMAN', jelas ndak mungkin ada. Sebagai anggota, tentu gak 100% THE BEST. I'm not 'THE BEST'. Sekali lagi tak bilangin ya... jangan salah sangka ngira I sombong. I bukan 'THE BEST'...
Dadah Nico! Nanti kalau ketemu lagi, mudah2an kowe wes nggandeng cewek ayu yang tampangnya koyo model. Kowe seneng tho karo model? Hehehehe. Sorry ya, kalau udah sering bikin malu kamu yen pas lagi jalan-jalan. Kamu sbenere ndak mau khan jalan sama cewek jelek koyo aku? Aku bukan model. Huahahahaha!!

Biasa wae, cah!!

Sempet Revisi lagu 'Syap' terus bikin 'Zil' yang versi DnB sama 'Kmarau' DnB. Suka banget sama 'Kmarau'!! Hehehe...
Me ama si 'Chu mo rencana bikin V-Klip lagi, tapi yang 'tenanan', ndak koyo sing wingi2 itu (mung dolanan iseng thok)...
Lumayan khan buat koleksi... Hihihi.. I mang suka bilang semuanya buat koleksi. Bikin lagu banyak buat dikoleksi, bikin V-Klip buat dikoleksi, syukur-syukur kalo bisa dipublikasi ndak apa2 juga. Cuma itu bukan yang No.1. Yang No.1 itu, yang penting kegiatan iseng2 jalan terus. Bikin lagu terus, dll dll...

GOODBYE LESLIE

Cantonese pop star and actor Leslie Cheung Kwok-wing, who starred in the hit film "Farewall My Concubine," jumped to his death in Hong Kong on Tuesday.
Gila.
Gue baru baca beritanya tadi malam.
Leslie Cheung si aktor & penyanyi kondang itu bunuh diri, man!
Turut berduka cita, soalnya ngefans.... Sayang banget.
Kenapa bisa bunuh diri?
Padahal dia punya ambisi besar jadi sutradara kondang. Cita-citanya blm kesampaian, dong..
Hiks..hiks...
I emang salah satu fans dia yang merasa kehilangan nih.
R.I.P, Leslie....
R.I.P...