I Can't Believe

I finally see your weakness
I can't believe
I'm so sorry I have to turn you down
I can't follow your way
I know it from the first time
When I found out that you're so stupid
Well
That's what I see you
You know what?
I don't wanna see you
Showing that you're the best thing
In fact you are just a dumb

I can't believe
When you never down
I can't believe
When you force me to
I can't believe it
I can't believe

I can't believe it
I can't believe
I can't believe it
I can't believe

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Push Me Smooth Deeply Until...

Pretty fuck
You give to me
Whole stab you can
In to me
I let you to groove on
Undress me alive
And
I let you lead your pretty mind
to free wash over mine
I wish
A lust for a core
You could open up
You open me
Push me smooth deeply
Until I could feel you inside of my mind
You push me again, slip on the time
And I get no time to stop you anymore
to control me

Put off our clothes and our underwear
Sitting on the rough
And we're making...
full of love to fun and on and on and on again
Ouw ouw
Feel it as one
Until we make this sound

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Kosheen Cover - Pride (Acoustic)

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Save Me The Time & Hold Me Love

Save Me The Time

Saving all your time to me
Take it flow and follow me
Waiting for something to show
Oh Oh Oh

I will find the story of you
Just the way to know
Call me now before it's too late
Oh Oh Oh

Don't let me down again
Overtime and time
Save me the time
Let's do something
Call me now again
Roll inside the sound
Save me the time
Well...

Don't let me down again
Overtime and time
Save me the time
Let's do something
Call me now again
Roll inside the sound
Save me the time
Save the time
Don't...
Let me down again
Overtime and time
Save me the time
Save the time
Call me now again
Roll inside the sound
Save me the time
Well

Saving all your time to me
Take it flow and follow me
Waiting for something to show
Oh Oh Oh


Hold Me Love

Feel me flying on the air
Trying not to fall in
Keep myself just for my love, I swear
Free myself to home again
I don't want to fall in
Keep myself just for my love, I swear

Just by playing picture views
To remind me of you
Stronger feeling I could get from you
I know you are not around
Three times flight to catch
Someday we will rise and shine, I swear

Feel like you hold me in my arms
And you hold me in my soul
Feel like you hold me, love
Oh oh
Hold me, love
Hold me, don't go

Day dreaming with the sound
Feel so alone
Smoke a few, it's not so bad
That's the only way to get
More attention to catch
The feeling for the thing of love

Feel like you hold me in my arms
And you hold me in my soul
Feel like you hold me, love
Oh oh
Hold me, love
Hold me, don't go

I wish I could be in your dream
Every time you sleep
I wish you could be in my dream
Every time I sleep

All I Have

All I have was there
But I took a wrong way
They have given all they've got
Then I turned it down

Always hope on the moonlite night
Feel it shine so bright
Never thought of the pain inside
Free to go on the ride

Finally no one cares
All become so peaceful - but
Sometimes they're back to bring the crowd
Put it all inside my head

Always hope on the moonlite night
Feel it shine so bright
I decided to - never think of the pain inside
Free to go on the ride
And I finally found the way out
The way out
The way out of here
And I finally found the way out
The way out
The way out of here
Way out of here

Don't Let Yourself Blinding

Erase me from your fucking mind
From your fucking life
I deserve to take all
Come on come on
Why don't you bury me alive

Mirror mirror on the wall
Probably you are right
I am not the prettiest from most of all
You can see me from inside
How deep is your heart
Know me for who I am

Don't let your self blinding by your own fake judgment
Cuz it would make me erase my self from this world
Don't let your self blinding by your own fake judgment
Cuz it would make me erase my self from this world
I don't care who's mistake
Just want to say I'm sorry, say I'm sorry
I can't fullfil your desire cuz it's not my wish
I swear to God I'll beg you to forgive me
And I'll never care who's mistake
Who's mistake?
Who's mistake?
Don't let your self blinding by your own fake judgment
Cuz it would make me erase my self from this world
Don't let your self blinding by your own fake judgment
Cuz it would make me erase my self from this world

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Placebo Cover - Bruise Pristine (Acoustic)

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Thrice Cover - Trust

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Imlek Duh

Today I realize that I am just receiving some changing in me. The things between me & my Dad seem like fixed. Then I think about "How did it happen?" I know how, but not sure... Probably I have done something right or wrong? But the truth is... it works. I know my Dad always feels dissatisfied or mad about me, or complaining about my guilt. My Dad would never hear something about me from my own mouth, because we never can speak to each other very well. He only knows me from those peoples & always took what people think (of me) without thinking that something from those people right or wrong. WRONG. They spoke 89% wrong about me & I know what my Dad felt for it... Yeah, it stressed him out. But everything is different now. It's not like that anymore. It's just because I have picked the right way to do. The point is... being away from the people is saving my life. While you never meet more people, only a little of them would talk bad things about you. Maybe they won't talk about you at all because you never showing off or make a move (like some of my close friends said, "You just working on the music and let them hear, that is how to show the feeling if they want to know you.") Some of them think it's not strange because they understand... I do realize too that I'm not really good at music thingy, I couldn't even sing very like them professionals. Fuck that!
I just want to keep straight to it... The way I chose to not get involved to the real world socialize with more people, the way I chose to not be a big mouth around people, the way I chose to sacrifice, the way I chose to keep myself lock & many other ways I chose as long as I never get easy to trust people whoever it is... It works... For what I did & still do now, nobody talks bad about me so my Dad doesn't hear anything bad come from their fucking mouth, the set up or the fake ones... To stop the move is very pointfull to me, it could kill the pain. Beware of people who couldn't be trust...
Since that, my Dad never complain to me again & I feel the miracle when I meet him... I would love to tell more about it, but I don't know how to tell... it's... well... Right now I feel that no one care for me anymore except my Dad.... He does, care about me. We never talk or have long discussion or do the way Father & Child talk like (because of we have different thoughts, different opinion, different will, actually I ever spoke to him heart to heart before, but then I stopped because he didn't support my musical work & he didn't like other stuff I love).
While I am with my Dad, the whole situation is more close to the silence.
Now seems that the biggest problem has changed suddenly. I always felt that my Dad was forcing me in the past, but now I feel things are different. By looking what had happened lately with only looking at his eyes & caught his generosity, or feel his presence when he's next to me, knowing that both of us are fine & healthy, somehow I feel so... happy, I guess. I can really feel that he really loves me & cares about me. I just felt it & I know it's true.
Mostly, I meet him only 3 times a week when he's on the break (he has his important family to taking care of & I'm so sad that I couldn't live with him, duh!). No activity when we're together. We're just sitting, working our own stuff. I use to draw something on his note while I sit in his office & he uses to face his computer playing his favorite game, solitaire (I like playing solitaire too & I'm glad we have same common).
I'm unsure about something too... but I hardly don't want to think about it. It's about... maybe my Dad is tired to talk to me because I had been a stubborn. Maybe he's tired to tell me what to do because I never could do all he had said. Anyway, I feel so light when I never hear from him again about I should finish school or I should stop doing the music business & other stuff he doesn't like, or I shouldn't date someone he hate... Never hear stuff like that anymore. No more forcing, arguing, bad gossip, black sheep and stuff... thank God (Huh, I shouldn't say that).
Shit, a question just popped!!! Maybe what make me starting to feel comfortable while I'm with my Dad because of... nobody loves me anymore? Friends or brother or relatives I use to meet everyday, some of them are making me sick. I don't care about that. I don't hate them. I'm just feel glad that I'm still have nice friends, they're being good to me, I just hardly couldn't meet them more often because they belong to some good colony while I'm still holding in the colony that never goes up better...
What in my mind right now is... I must spend more time with Dad although we never talk, just be with him in the time I have, before I die. I must be regret my life if I waste that time. Right now, be with him is better than I'm being with them...
I did, ever said FUCK YOU DAD!!! But I love my Dad so so so much...
He's happy with his important family & I never cause troubles. I am his daughter but I'm not too important compare with his family. Sometimes I think, where's my family? No more. Anyways, I can still meeting my Dad. I'm happy for it...

LUPA

selama ini aku tidak pernah sadar tentang apa yang kulakukan saat ini, tiba-tiba saja aku melupakan keinginanku yang dulu dan aku kembali mengingatnya lagi. selama aku melupakan keinginanku itu, aku sama sekali tidak pernah berpikir tentang keinginanku itu lagi, dan apa yang kulakukan setelah aku melupakan keinginanku membuatku terasa seperti hidup di dalam dunia mimpi,... apa sebenarnya yang kulakukan sekarang? kadang-kadang terasa sangat mengagetkan dan aku tak tahu apakah itu membuatku senang atau tidak

Deeply Down

Come on now baby
I just wanna shake you baby
Come with me and play around on the sofa now
I wanna lay you down to light my sense of dirty mind
I want you
I'll shake you baby

I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
Baby baby ah
I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
Oh
Oh Baby babe

Close to me
Into the splash, the moment is right before we shake
And then we take the touch of body groove and body move
I never can hold on to turn my passion off
I can't let go of you
I wanna shake you baby

I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
Baby baby ah
I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
I'll show you deeply down
Ouw Baby baby baby baby baby


this kinda asking politely to someone to smack down punching and kicking on the sofa

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My Chemical

On the place that I shouldn't have to see
Trap again on the edge of the people around me
And I can't see
Anymore clearly present the wicked they use to be
The past isn't here anymore
It's just like hell and this life seems has to end
Once again
I'm acting like a moron
Once again

It's just my chemical, my tradition
Stay silent like I use to be
To the people around me
Nobody would see
What's happening around here
It's just
My chemical, my tradition
Stay silent like I use to be
To the people around me
Around me
It's just my chemical
It's my chemical

Better close my eyes when laziness around
Can't take anymore to the sound surround me
And I can't hear
Anymore clearly playing the wicked they use to be
The star isn't here anymore
It's just like hell and this life seems has to end
Once again
I'm acting like a moron
Once again

It's just my chemical, my tradition
Stay silent like I use to be
To the people around me
Nobody would see
What's happening around here
It's just
My chemical, my tradition
Stay silent like I use to be
To the people around me
Like nobody use to be
I wish I could see
You

It's my chemical, my tradition
Stay silent like I use to be
To the people around me
Nobody would see
What's happening around here
It's just
My chemical, my tradition
Stay silent like I use to be
To the people around me
Like nobody use to be
I wish I could see
You

My chemical
My chemical
My chemical
My chemical

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Air - Sick

Gunna fly the flight again soon
Gunna fly the flight again soon
Whatta fuck!!!
I hate being in the aeroplane
Especially for a long fucking flight which reach more than 2 hours
See, while I was in the 8 hours flight, I puked most of the time
Fo shooo, If I`m in a long flight again, I`ll need more Puking Bag
I hate to fly in the flight again
Wella, I`ve never been on the first class
But I hate the fucking flight
The aeroplane make me sick
Let see...
Hihihi... I don`t mind to take a flight to Amsterdam in 1 hour flight from Homburg, thoo...
Cuz...
Hihihi... Will go to the weeduh cafe cafe for free joint fo sho!!!
Wuhuuuuuuuuu!!!

Geez... I post CRAPS today... WHATTA FUCK...
I will get on the flight nywayz soon!!!
And we will never have time to celebrate something...
Will be no party or CAND LITE DINE
AAAAAAWWWWWWWW MORIIIIIIIIIII!!!
That sucks...
Okie, what we should do now is just...
Pray for safety on the upcoming flight!!!

Pour It

I`m bout to kick this shit :

Reach to the shore
When I'm rushing for million time underground
That's the place around me
I could see, on the top
On the way to your arms
On your soul
Force to say
I don't know I can't be like always

Cries to this life
Never enough
Getting so high
and I pour it to all

I feel - so far from here
Fantastic along without someone to share
Life is so pretty
And I'm happy waiting for
When anytime I could see it
like I never hear them again

Cries to this life
Never enough
Getting so high
and I pour it to all

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That`s from me today...
Auf...

Ominous

Come into the rainy season
Wrap the air with self confusion
Riddin 'round the night
Become so warm with lack of false illusion

Ominous, undesirable
Unlike, it's so obvious
Ominous, undesirable
Unlike, so obvious

Don't have to tell me somethin
I know where to go
Don't have to give me somethin
Handle it like before
I know how to deal
I know, and
I can see that
You're really strictly frozen

Would you please forgive me
for impassive caused illumination
I do feel that I'm imperfect
I'm so rigorous with your fashion

Ominous, undesirable
Unlike, it's so obvious
Ominous, undesirable
Unlike, so obvious

Don't have to tell me somethin
I know where to go
Don't have to give me somethin
Handle it like before
I know how to deal
I know, and
I can see that
You're really strictly frozen

Smash it up
A bit loud
A bit hard
A bit shock
Smash it up
A bit old fashion

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Something Cool

Gaahh!!!!

Talking` bout what I was doing lately... Huhuhu...
Nothing. I think I am now more being a lazy ass worst than before, plus... I`ve become vvv bad...
Without doin` anything these few days, I didn`t feel bore at all. Well, cuz the situation was vvv cool around... The weed, enjoying Jason`s acoustic (Geez. I should sat down & listen with a certain enjoyment but I was cleaning the room while they all high drinkin` & smokin` shit...) :P Nywayz, I got 8 mins long of Jason`s acoustic, it would be cool if I try to practice those songs & prepare it for the next acoustic live performance someday. Gezz!!! That`s vvv hard. I mean, listen to the way Jason sings acoustic... I think I`m gunna faint... He`s vvv awesome when singin` acoustic songs. If I could sing soulfully, emotionally hot like him,I wouldn`t believe myself... hsuahushuashuahushaa...
OK...
I thought that Jason had thought me stuff but I'm vvv stupid... hsuahsuhaushuahusa :D What I would do would be practicing those...
I can`t sing like him, GOD DMN IT!!! How can??? Hushuahsuhauhsuasua!!!
Practice!!! Practice!!! Practice!!! Practice!!! Game over!!!!

Remedy or You Make Me High

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SOMETHING ELSE I WANNA REPORTO :
FLORITH
Geez... Looks cool, isn`t it? But it isn`t cool at all. The taste isn`t good as it looks. Let say that Florith is the good stuff to swallow when the insomnia attacks you. Normal dosage is 2 pieces a day. But for me, sometimes need 5 pieces a day or maybe more if couldn`t make me feel vvv sleepy. The bad effect of Florith could be... well, make your body restless after you wake up from your sleep. Nywayz, I found Florith is the best cuz mostly Florith user won`t get addicted to it.


SLEEPING
Some of them got confuse when the asked me : "What is your most enjoyable time of your life?" & I answer it with : "Yay!!! Sleeping is my most enjoyable time!!!" Hihihi. Well, I always think that when I`m sleeping, I don`t have to do anything or think of anything. And the dream I had while I`m sleeping? I think it`s something good to cure my mind, eventhoo it`s only dream. That`s stupid, aight? Yup. I`m stupid & everybody knows that.


CANNABO SATIVO
This plant is my med. It`s my doping for my musical works & my inspiration of anything. Althoo sometimes it makes me stupid too, hsuahsuahsuhaushuahusa. Well, if the stuff is not good I could be vvv stupid & confuse myself like a stupid dummy. Hell yeah, I love weeduh, but only for strong & powerful weeduh. I`m an addict, but I don`t have to smoke all the time. It`s OK thoo if I have no stuff or taking a rest to smoking it cuz I`m not a fanatic addict to it.



TALOK
It`s not just a sweet delicious kindsa fruit. It`s also good for digestion. Don`t have to eat all or swallow it whole cuz the yummy part is the inside of the fruit. I think this fruit is only grow in Java Island cuz I never find this fruit anywhere in other land except here at Mori`s resident. Some of us have planted it here & it grows and grows. What an awesome. The taste won`t get me bore fo sure :D


COOL
Hihihi. It`s nothing. I just found this pic vvv cool. What I wanna say is : I don`t really like to drink absolute vodka. Doesn`t meant that I hate to drink it. No, I do like it, but only when I`m on good occasion. Honestly, it`s kinda embarrassing to tell... When I watch the boy drinking like that, it`d raise up my whaahaa. I won`t type more. You know some title of songs : Horny, I wanna Make Love to You, I Wanna Sex You Up, Let`s Fuck Tonight, You Really Blow My Mind, Mind Blowin`, Swim The Fire, Shut Up & Get Fuck, and so on and so on. Well, feels like it. I think I`ve been poisoned by The Funkstro Syndrome or something. Whatta pitty...


Waaaaaa... suuuuuuu!!!

Amoria Sugestie

Still terorizing my life
There are creeping in my secret teritory like a knife stabbing hard in my chest
I don't want to die so fast
With no love, the mission
It was a fucking little nasty ceremony at first
I've drunken it to heal my thirst
It wasn't the dream
It wasn't a dirty passion or a stupid dirty games
It wasn't my intention
It wasn't expected love motion
It was my amnesty day, not lust
It wasn't my plan

It wasn't my plan
You stupid
It wasn't my intention
It was my amnesty day, not lust
It wasn't the dream
You stupid
It wasn't a dirty passion or a stupid dirty games
It was a fucking little nasty ceremony at first
And I don't know where to start to explain it all to you
Cuz I'm a little bit
I

I never feel so sure
I never fight before
I never know for sure
I'm - a little bit underneath
I know you want me more
I would lay down the floor
Just go on lock the door
I'm - a little bit

I'm a little bit underneath
I'm a little bit underneath

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The Great Pretender

I was smiling. I didn’t know why but I smiled, sitting alone in the middle of the child’s playground, in the past midnight. I never hope something would come out or someone would come. I love the area empty. But I think I won’t have much time to be alone because my friends would come sooner or later. I hate to join them to the secret gathering, but a wise tip from my eldest, I should hang out sometimes, that would make me more humanize. And the point there was, I never tell eldest that the secret gathering is meeting our kind, not meeting human. I think he already knew it because I’m sure that he could smell it. What a heck…
The wind wasn’t cold enough chewing my bone. I liked it. So, I don’t have to be worry the blood wouldn’t come out from my nose as long as the breeze wasn’t so cold.
“I’m just passing by,” a voice coming from my head.
Damn. I thought I was alone, but someone came to disturb. And that was not my friend’s voice, but somebody I don’t know.
“Whoever you are, fuck you!” I spoke with my mind. If you don’t know what I mean, that’s what I call “mind speaking”. And I’m, not speaking alone. It’s just like telepathy. ‘Mind speaking’ and ‘mind reading’, those are the gifts. The things human cannot do. And there are many other things I couldn’t tell.
The voice replied loud in my head, laughing out loud at me. Yeah. Sounds like it. I shouted to it to shut the fuck up.
“You said fuck too much, who are you anyway? What are you doing alone around here?” the voice spoke to my head, asking stupid questions I don’t want to answer.
“It’s none of your business, fuckers! Why don’t you show yourself? You’re hiding like a chicken coward!” I replied
The voice’s laughing out loud again. I don’t think when I went mad the situation not change like a clown show or comedy. But the stupid bastard kept laughing at me for what I said, from the beginning of our conversation.
“Bloody Hell! Show yourself!” I dare, and that time I spoke with my mouth, no more ‘mind speaking’.
A shape suddenly appeared in front of where I was sitting. A tall body and light hair. I shouldn’t say a young man, but young something, that probably the right word I should say about him. I couldn’t see clearly his face because his hair almost covered a half of his face.
“What are you? You’re almost human, but not in blood!” He said with curiosity.
“I? Is that a problem?” I said, looked through his eyes deeply and try hard to recognize that the young sucker bastard is a stupid low category for suckers like them.
“I thought you are…” he didn’t finished. I know that’s a hard word to say in front of human’s territory. But I never care to say anything about anything.
“Human?” I grinned.
“Yes,” he couldn’t hide his admiration.
“Plokolop?” I continued. “I know who you are. How did you arrive?”
“You can track my ship. I have to go!” He said fast, and then disappeared.
“Hahahaha! Coward!”
“I’m not a coward. They are walking and will be here in a minute,” he explained with ‘mind speaking’.
“Huh. Nice hearing. No need to be afraid,” I grumbled.
I heard some step approaching. There’re about 9 men and they’re wearing uniform. Some of them started to search all over the place. And two of them were coming to me, asking me stuff.
“Do you see anything suspicious around here?”
“No. What are you looking for?” I asked.
“The alien.”
“The alien?” I pretended to shock, hoping that they never find out anything about me. And then I laugh loudly to them and said, “The alien? Hah! I must be dreaming! Who want to wake me up?”
They saw me as if I’m a crazy sick from the mental institution, going straight to the next park to search again. So, that’s what I face to that night. I’m still safe.
I better stop before the spell break.

Confusion 1

Behind me is a deep hole
In front of me is a sea without a shore
I'm in the middle of nowhere
Which way should I go?

I have to make a decision
Between the right or wrong
I have to decide my destinationIs it good or bad?

Citrus

Something's bugging me
Nothing I wanna have, nothing more
They said so, we get on the line
I don't know what to do to face the game
Rest it all again
I'll send you away
I'll send you away
Looking out for better way
What a way, would you take the lead?

You know, I don't know
No, I don't know
No, I don't know
No, I don't know
You know, I don't know
You know, I don't know
Put us in the citrus

Put us in the citrus
Put us in the citrus
Put us in the citrus
Put us in the citrus

Voices, haunting me
Lead me to my death, the suicide moment
Locked me in the precious ground
On the shore, far from love and vain
Rest it all again
You'll show me the way
You'll show me the way
Looking out for better way
What a way, would you take the lead?

You know, I don't care
No, I don't care
No, I don't care
No, I don't care
You know, I don't care
You know, I don't care
Put us in the citrus

Put us in the citrus
Put us in the citrus
Put us in the citrus
Put us in the citrus